I've been seperated two months and as very difficult it was to be married to this man, it is very difficult going through this process. More than I ever knew about was brought to the surface and I can't even recognize my life as my own anymore. All I do is wait for the next horrible surprise. I'm so worried about my children and they are what keep me going.
I do understand that you are going through a difficult time and that sometimes you lose yourself in marriages. This happens to many people (especially women). The thing now is that you must stop beating yourself up. The past is the past and you didn't mean to let that happen. The point now is that you must figure out how to make yourself happy and reclaim the person you lost? Were there things that you used to do that you don't do anymore? DO you have dreams that you can accomplish? Once you figure it out, make positive changes and watch your life change and your self esteem improve.
Have you tried talking to your spouse and figuring out if there is hope for your marriage? Would you consider counseling and are you open to trying different things to make your marriage work or do you simply want out of the relationship? Only you can truly figure out what is best for you and your marriage, you now must take some time and figure out your wants and needs. Once you do this, you will know what is best for you and your relationship.
