Lately I have been having severe difficulty getting to sleep at night.
No matter how tired I am, sleep refuses to come and I find myself laying in bed several hours after turning out the light.
I fear that my subconscious may be interfering.
The back of my mind may be getting sick of all the bad dreams that I have every time I sleep. My wife returns every night to attack and hurt me. So, my mind avoids the pain by not allowing me to participate in the activity that facilitates it.
I fear that this disabling problem will continue for a very long time. It's the deep wounds that hurt the longest.
I say see a doctor about some sleeping pills or if you don't have healthcare and don't like taking medicine try the Sleepytime teas on your grocer's shelf. Chamomille plant might help as well. Do you walk or exercise? I suffered from insomnia for a couple of years after my divorce and once I got walking and concentrating on other areas of life, I am cured. I was like that during college graduation too, any big life altering event and it strikes again but usually exercise and a routine can help. Good luck!
Every time my head hits the pillow, I only see myself putting a gun to my head and pulling the trigger. I stil have dreams about my wife where we talk, see each other, or even have sex...then I wake up to the NIGHTMARE that is so easily dubbed "real life" where she was a stinking coward who deserted a good man in favor of her treacherous loins. Doesn't help that I'm sleep on the most uncomfortable bed in history (and NO, I CAN'T GO OUT AND BUY A NEW ONE!) and no one is her to talk about it.
