We speperated just two days ago. He had no place to go so he staid at my apartment, and I got to go to my parents... My parents house has 6 other people here. My sister who is 23 (a royal bitch) and 3 other children in school (8th grade on up), along with my parents 3 dogs and my dog. I am 26 and have been out of my parents since I was 19-20... for good reason. This is not home to me. I don't want to be here. I want to run back and say never mind, lets fix this... but I have already done that once and we ended up even worse. Its amazing how lonley I feel with all of these people around. To top it off my best friend is hardley speaking to me. She is wrapped up in her life or mad cause I went back last time and thinks I will this time. I hate her.
Now I say my apartment cause he has no job, and I have been paying the bills. But I am the one that wanted out. So I left.
He wants to see the dog. I don't want to. I call him every day (Its only been three days). Its just that I am lonley and have no one to talk to. God I feel like dying and no one understands.....
I do. I see an impending divorce coming between my wife and I. We have been married for 6 years, but have been "together" since high school. It hurts, like someone is taking the air out of your lungs. All you want is to just be around this person, but it still hurts. I understand every single thing you said. The home life, the lonliness, I understand.
I really hope that both of you are doing better now. I just got separated and I'm pretty familiar with the lonely feelings, depression, sadness. I know it'll get better but this process feels just so long.
New to the site. How are you doing now? Is everything better?